I have been expecting this day, the D day for so long. I have plenty of emotions right now. I feel anxious, happy, stressed and at some point more relaxed than ever. After so many tests, disappointing news and lots of money, two embryos will be transferred to my uterus this afternoon.
When we started our baby search I never thought we would need to deal with so many tests and confusing new words. I have realised that during all our lives society teaches us how not to get pregnant. But we do not know anything about infertility. Infertility is still a big world taboo.
But even our path has not been what we expected, we are really thankful for everything we have learned so far. We know our kids (I am crossing fingers they will come sooner than later) will be REALLY loved. We struggled as a couple to be able to achieve it and we are stronger than ever.
My message to all of you that are out there suffering as we did:
- Never Give up: if it is your dream fight for it. It is not easy but it is possible.
- Test, Test, Test: do not hesitate to test as much as possible before an IVF treatment. I know some tests are really expensive but an IVF treatment is muuuuccchh more expensive.
- Take time for yourselves and what helps to feel better: for example writing it has been my medicine, for other people maybe coocking or acupuncture or going for dinner.
- Love yourself
Now I will start to get ready to go to eat lunch and then to the fertility clinic.